Another good-for-nothing creation that was sitting in the notepad from last one week! Now you have no choice but to read it. Sorry.


what happened ?
what happened to my dream
of living a crazy life
traveling the world
reaching for everything
that i always wanted

my dream
of doing what none else thinks of doing
living by my rules
being happy
and living my life
just the way i always have
like the crazy one

what happened to my dream
is it still alive
or am i letting it die
am i still fighting the world
to keep it alive?

Why does no one want to be fungus?

Is it winter yet?

If you are still wondering, answer the following questions:

1. You wore a hoodie/coat or boots today
Yes/No

2. You are afraid the fall colors will vanish soon
Yes/No

3. You are looking for a halloween costume
Yes/No

4. You wake up before the sun rises and still don't find time to do your hair before heading out to work
Yes/No

5. The hallway at work smells of holiday food
Yes/No

6. You find people serving cider at parties and you think what happened to beer?
Yes/No

7. While you read this, you have a heater on, under my desk (or somewhere else)
Yes/No

8. You have to put your jacket on, before you step out of the building (cz you don't want to die - of cold of course)
Yes/No

9. Your facebook is being spammed by dinner/party invitations
Yes/No

10. When you go out for a walk at night, you smell burnt wood of fireplaces
Yes/No

If you answered 'Yes' for any eight out of above ten questions, CONGRATULATIONS! you have just stepped into a new season - WINTER!

It’s a brutal truth that I have outgrown a size two in merely two months. And now I am obsessed – obsessed with losing weight, dieting, exercising, and what not. But being a food jerk, it has been hard for me to stick to a diet. I have had several plans, most of which have failed miserably.

PLAN # 1: All vegetarian diet I tried this for two weeks. And I was strictly able to stick to it. No meat for two whole weeks. I think I felt fine. But right after two weeks I started eating meat like a carnivore. Now I am back to where I was. Result – Nothing.

PLAN # 2: Lean Cuisine
I have screamed out loud many times that I do not enjoy cooking. So this seemed to be an easy diet plan to follow (but it was easy only for one day). Soon I got bored of the frozen food day and night. I can have it only once a day everyday at the most. And I found myself snacking like crazy. My snacks became heavier than my meals. and I was always unsatisfied and hungry. Result – Nothing again.

PLAN # 3: South beach diet
Belen introduced me to this diet plan. They say Tobey Maguire used this diet to get his Spiderman body (not that I want one like his). What it is, is basically making healthier eating choices, differentiating between good and bad carbs/fats. And I have been trying to stick to it. But to my surprise, the day I started this diet, I have been having cravings for cheesy, fried and greasy stuff. I have no idea why. I have never had such cravings! Honestly! Result – N-A-D-A!

PLAN # 4: ‘Eat small portions, five times a day’ diet
I have started eating five times a day. But the portions are not small. And some days, when they are, it doesn’t really matter. There are times when I feel stuffed, not hungry at all, but I still want to eat. Result – it’s making things worse!

I feel like I have some kind of eating disorder – the kind in which I want to eat everything edible I see around me. A kind in which I have cravings for food that I used to absolutely hate not too long ago. What has happened to me in these two months? What changed that changed me so much?

Now I am seriously looking for a plan that really works. It’s affecting me mentally and physically of course. It’s kinda shaping into a psychological disorder now. That uncontrollable urge to eat, and then the guilt after eating! To be honest, I am not fat, I just need to lose a couple of inches and I will be back to normal and happy. But I have no idea as to what diet/work-out plan to follow.

S.O.S!

Beware of small things

It’s that time of the year again – when summer is over and winter is not quite here yet. But this is that time of the year when we clean up. Pack the summer clothes/shoes and fill up the closet with warm/semi-warm clothes to get ready for the cold. So just like every year, I was organizing my closet when I saw how cluttered it was. Every time I clean it, I promise to myself that this closet will have only the basics, the bare minimums in it. No extras!

But again, every time I start cleaning, I find a bunch of stuff in there which is basically clutter - things I was crazy about, loved ‘em, spent a fortune on ‘em but will never be able to use ‘em. Random things - clothes I don’t like anymore, or don’t fit into, or are out of fashion, shoes that are pretty but don’t go well with anything, unused make up, souvenirs I collected from different places, bags, jewelry that I will never wear, old gifts from people who aren’t even a part of my life any more, some random wires, old broken phone, batteries, tons and tons of paper/receipts/documents and what not.

I wonder how this damn thing keeps getting so messed up. Where does all the ‘extra’ stuff keep coming from? I don’t even see them sneaking in there. And the worst part is that I notice them when it’s all over the place. It’s like it just takes control of the territory.

Isn’t that how our lives are too? We try to keep it simple, but with each passing day, we accumulate clutter and make our baggage heavier. We end up investing our time in the unnecessary, wasting our emotion in the undeserving, spending our money on the unworthy, and making the contemptible a part of our life. And what’s more tricky is that we realize it only when it takes control of us and messes us up in our heads. We keep overlooking these small things each day cz at that time it doesn’t look so messed up. But at the end of the year, when we look back, we see how these little things shape our lives.

So here’s a word of caution – “BEWARE OF SMALL THINGS”! Enjoy the good ones, and clean up the bad ones while they’re still small.

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